Homeless and possibly happy...But is it l♥VE?

Wow what a difference I feel today. Maybe I needed a new day? Who knows but today I am feeling way less moody and have no desire to run my mouth.  I was greeted by my Best friend/boy friend as he would like me to refer to him. I mean the title of boyfriend just makes me feel a little silly almost like I am a  teenager.

I say this with a smile because there was a teenage version of usc yes we dated as young kids. I was 14 and he was 17. I lied saying i was 15. When my birthday came i remember him asking so your 16 now? My response nope 15. He realized I lied. But no legal action is needed, if you knlw what I mean. I was not giving it up. Im sure he had blue balls and probably shot a few in my memory.  I am no fool im sure mr. 120 no Mr. 125 got his fulfill.  Yes the 125 is exactly what you think. I know wow....or maybe a yuck. He makes a full hand for me. Meaning is my fifth partner. Overall I am happy and I am in love but I could tell you some things that may have you think, are you nuts? Well I will clear that up now before we go any further. Yes I must be, it is the only thing that explains all the stupid things I do, have done and will probably do again. I guess my norms just dont line up with society.  I mean I love God and have faith in the lord meaning Jesus but at times my actions do not reflect that.
I entered this relationship married to another man as he did as well. Yes he was married also. And to a Manx just kidding but he also was married.  Currently he is divorced, totally him his wife threatened for years but after all never really wanted to more liked hurting him. Well lesson learned to anyone dont say things you dont mean there may come a day when a broad snatches up what you thought you were over.  I am not a bitch nor did I steal someone's husband. Ill explain so read on before you write me off as a cheating whore. As for my spouse he has also moved on but we are still married.  We both have two children, his kids will with their mother and I have mine my kids. My spouse has been a dick no child support in over a year. Another story you should ready really the basis as to why he and I are now one. One friendship that is.

I was with my husband for a little over 15 years (married) over 15, almost 16. My boyfriend chris was also with his wife for a while being married for several years but together I beleive they were close to 17.  They had their issues, and at times bad but besides their children their divorce went smooth no property distribution.  I have two houses one now. We had one foreclosed ouch that hurts your spirit as well as Credit. But that house was always an investment.  Im sure once that foreclosure comes to an end it will sting bad. Enough blah blah but wanted to explain that property and support payments is what stops me. All these years and that prick just stops everything.  I understand why he would say f off to me. But our girls are innocent.  The dick he is and that he knows me he goes straight to the heart cutting all monetary support. Which is a main factor to my current status. He recently last week went on a very expensive vacation out of the country,  lied about it and never even told the kids good bye. I begged him to tell them. Of course the prick dis not. Believe me these stories get better but right.now I am plagued by a pending final I need to write.  I will end on that note but promise ro to get to the meat of the story. The beat downs, my broken mandible, living in fear. The crazy shit that made CD (thats what i call him) fly 3000 miles to be here with me. STICK AROUND it will be worth it.
Its more than the fights, Ill tell you about crazy love and having someone make your toes curl. I used to think why...why what????? Well I knew why dudes liked to be serviced but honestly had no idea why the ladies enjoyed it. Well lets just say now I know, and I love it. I prefer it, getting wet just thinking about it.
With a new relationship you can start over feeling free and we made promises to each otherc never to cheat. Personally not my weak spot, but for him a very weak spot. But he says not now...huh I know I am not foolish but have no indication but I watch and he knows I will leave him regardless to the magic. Ill refer to it as that. But our promise no reservations we want to try some thing.  We do it. No feeling dumb no nothing. He wants a blow fine. He wants to #&(@ ok. That simple. He wants to jumps aboard and talk dirty. I join in. So believe me lots of detail. Keep reading you will enjoy.